Kate

This song gives me runners high all the time and pumps me up when I lift. The lyrics say a lot, but it’s really the music that makes it work for me. It’s a long song, which helps time go by quickly when running. It’s by Dave Matthews Band as well.

Pig

Oh, isn’t it strange
How we move our lives for another day?
Like skipping a beat
What if a great wave should wash us all away?
Just thinking out loud
Don’t mean to dwell on this dying thing
But look at my blood
It’s alive right now,
And deep and sweet within
Pouring through our veins
Intoxicate moving wine to tears
And drinking it deep
Then an evening spent dancing
It’s you and me…

Love, love, love, what more is there?
‘Cause we need the light of love in here
Don’t beat your head
Dry your eyes
Let the love in there
There’re bad times
But that’s okay
Just look for love in it

Music sometimes expresses how I feel better than I can. A lot of what I listen to at any one time, is because it explains how I feel and what mood I’m in. I had a rather aggrivating and stressful day at work last night, right up to the last 5 minutes. I don’t feel like going into detail, but let’s just say someone tried to ruin my night and I almost let them succeed. In addition to random stupidity in the world, I also am dealing with my dad’s cancer. I get very emotional at times without realizing it. Tomorrow I am taking him to NYC Sloan Kettering Cancer Center. We hope he’ll learn of good news or something different they can try. He and I are going alone together, which is more time I get to spend with him, just us. I am afraid of breaking down in the doctors, if we hear bad news. I know my mom isn’t doing well healthy wise and wasn’t able to take off of work to go. I think she is also afraid too.

I really should have done yoga this morning. The funk I’m in is really annoying…

Some songs I’ve listend to lately are by Dave Matthews Band. The lyrics are pretty grim, but I feel by acknowledging them, I am able to express how I feel deep inside as well as just ‘get it out’ and be able to move on.

Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever find happiness in my career or in life. I am always striving to do more, learn more and be more. I do not like to stay still or stagnate. I would love the new opportunity, if given to me, in that it would be constantly changing, challenging and enlightening. I’d find out so much more about myself, what I can do and how much more I can learn. I hope they give me this opportunity. I feel its time for me to make a move in this game of chess we call life. I will know on Monday, hopefully.

Here are some lyrics I’ve looked up, from some recent songs I’ve listened to and feel a connection with:

Big Eyed Fish - Dave Matthews Band

You see, this crazy man
Decided not to breathe
He turned red then blue,purple
Colorful indeed
No matter how his friends
Begged and pleaded
The man would not concede
And now he’s dead
You see, the silly man should
Know you got to breatheBut oh god
Under the weight of life
Things seem
Brighter on the other side

Don’t Drink the Water - DMB

I live with my justice
And I live with my greedy need
I live with no mercy
And I live with my frenzied feeding
I live with my hatred
And I live with my jealousy
I live with the notion that I don’t need anyone but me

The Dreaming Tree - DMB

From the start
She knew she had it made
Easy up ’til then
For sure she’d make the grade
Adorers came in hordes
To lay down in her wake
Gave it all she had
But treasures slowly fade
Now she’s falling hard
Feels the fall of dark
How did this fall apart?
She drinks to fill it up
A smile of sweetest flowers
Wilted so and soured
Black tears stain the cheeks
That once were so admired
She thinks when she was small
There on her father’s knee
How he had promised her,
“You’ll always be my baby.”
“Daddy come quick,
The dreaming tree has died
I can’t find my way home
There is no place to hide
The dreaming tree has died.”